the blahs

Life has been MEH lately. My days are too long and I'm pushing myself to hard and I have no energy. Most days start at 4am with me getting up for work, working until 2pm and then classes from 3pm until 8pm. I then come home and crash in front of the TV for an hour and then its bedtime. That kind of pace is soul crushing, and that's what it will be like until I graduate in May.

Not to mention I haven't been inspired much by shopping lately. Other than my urge to procure a black bag and boots this fall (failing to do so) and the need for a new winter coat my shopping is non-existent. Literally September bank statement reads almost entirely of food (lots of stops to Lettuce for frozen yogurt and the bakery down the street for baguettes) and it shows. I've gained weight, not in the OMG ballooning way but a bit. My cardigans now tug when done up. It's disheartening and I know it's because I'm entirely inactive most days and I eat out way too much. But with above schedule how am I to fix this?

This is a low point in my life, I haven't felt this depressed since high school when my dad was sick and dying. I'm scared about whats going to happen next year in the real world once I leave the school bubble. I have no plans, no aspirations. I have literally no idea what I want to do with my life.

It's not all bad, one of my high school friends recently moved to the city and we've been hanging out more which is nice. I've missed having close friends since I moved here. All my relationships have been very superficial so far, so it's nice to get that closeness back.

I'm going to strive for some balance in my life. I think a 50/40/10 is not good enough if I don't want to burn out (50 School, 40 Work, 10 Me time) I'm going to aim for 40/40/20 for now possibly 40/30/30 in the future. I don't want to cut back too much on school work, but I am going to organise my time better and not worry about it on my days off unless totally necessary. Hopefully I can re-find myself in the process, because I miss me.

The Onivores Hundred

1) Copy this list into your blog or journal, including these instructions.
2) Bold all the items you’ve eaten.
3) Cross out any items that you would never consider eating.
4) Optional extra: Post a comment here at www.verygoodtaste.co.uk linking to your results.

The VGT Omnivore’s Hundred:

1. Venison
2. Nettle tea
3. Huevos rancheros
4. Steak tartare
5. Crocodile
6. Black pudding
7. Cheese fondue
8. Carp
9. Borscht
10. Baba ghanoush
11. Calamari
12. Pho
13. PB&J sandwich
14. Aloo gobi
15. Hot dog from a street cart
16. Epoisses
17. Black truffle
18. Fruit wine made from something other than grapes
19. Steamed pork buns
20. Pistachio ice cream
21. Heirloom tomatoes
22. Fresh wild berries
23. Foie gras
24. Rice and beans
25. Brawn, or head cheese
26. Raw Scotch Bonnet pepper
27. Dulce de leche
28. Oysters
29. Baklava
30. Bagna cauda
31. Wasabi peas
32. Clam chowder in a sourdough bowl
33. Salted lassi
34. Sauerkraut
35. Root beer float
36. Cognac with a fat cigar
37. Clotted cream tea
38. Vodka jelly/Jell-O
39. Gumbo
40. Oxtail
41. Curried goat
42. Whole insects
43. Phaal
44. Goat’s milk
45. Malt whisky from a bottle worth £60/$120 or more
46. Fugu
47. Chicken tikka masala48. Eel
49. Krispy Kreme original glazed doughnut
50. Sea urchin
51. Prickly pear
52. Umeboshi
53. Abalone
54. Paneer
55. McDonald’s Big Mac Meal
56. Spaetzle
57. Dirty gin martini
58. Beer above 8% ABV
59. Poutine
60. Carob chips
61. S’mores
62. Sweetbreads
63. Kaolin
64. Currywurst
65. Durian
66. Frogs’ legs
67. Beignets, churros, elephant ears or funnel cake
68. Haggis
69. Fried plantain
70. Chitterlings, or andouillette
71. Gazpacho
72. Caviar and blini
73. Louche absinthe
74. Gjetost, or brunost
75. Roadkill
76. Baijiu
77. Hostess Fruit Pie
78. Snail
79. Lapsang souchong
80. Bellini
81. Tom yum
82. Eggs Benedict
83. Pocky
84. Tasting menu at a three-Michelin-star restaurant.
85. Kobe beef
86. Hare
87. Goulash
88. Flowers
89. Horse
90. Criollo chocolate
91. Spam
92. Soft shell crab
93. Rose harissa
94. Catfish
95. Mole poblano
96. Bagel and lox
97. Lobster Thermidor
98. Polenta
99. Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee
100. Snake

pretty much I'd be willing to try anything except roadkill or horse. 48/100 isn't half bad. How did everyone else score?

New Nail Colour

Just picked up from the new OPI collections (the French collection) Baguette me not. It's a perfect summer to fall colour. Not quite as rich as my all time favorite Grand Canyon Sunset, but still a great colour. Defiantly going into the rotation.

The Lending Conundrum

How do you deal with lending? My sisters been staying at my mums for a bit while her and her hubby wait for their new house to be built (He's been staying at my place in the city). While it hasn't been bad I've been getting a little irritated by the fact that she waltzes into my closet and borrows whatever she wants. From my new BCBG skirt, to my Michael Kors Blouse to my cloth Coach shoes which I just picked up off the floor and are all scuff marked. She's now asking me to borrow $500 so she can buy her desk for her new house. She's been really good at paying people back lately so that’s not the issue. The issue is I want to get my new sunglasses so I told her I'd see about lending her the money. There is a sale on right now at lenscrafters and if I can get them cheaper than I normally would with my 30% CAA discount I'm obviously going to get them, right? Seems sensible, as her sale lasts until next week anyways and mine ends this weekend.
Wrong.
She's 27 and she threw a hissy fit last night because I said maybe. Now I don't want to lend her money period. I'm doing her a favour, giving up some of my sparse income to help her out and she's freaking out? She's 27 and I'm 22. This seems a little odd to me. Sorry for ranting but I'm trying not to freak out at her right now.
xxx

Do you ever...

feel guilty about how much you spend on clothing/purses/ect? I know I do sometimes. Not in the OMG I just spent how much?!! way in the awkward when someone asks you where you got something or how much something was. Because I work part time at Starbucks I work with a huge range of people, and I know not everyone can afford to shop like me. I'm blessed, my mum had a great job and I work my ass off to pay for the things I want. But somehow even though I pay for all my extravagances myself I still feel guilty when talking to people who wouldn't dream of spending that much. Does anyone else feel this way?

Fall TV Shedual

uh-oh I've totally double booked some shows this year... oh well I'll manage

Mondays:
Gossip Girl
Greek
Chuck
The Hills
Tuesdays:
Beverly Hills 90210
House
Privileged
Wednesday:
Private Practice
Dirty Sexy Money
Thursday:
Grey's Anatomy
Ugly Betty
Smallville
Supernatural
Sunday:
Desperate Housewives

um... I may watch a little too much tv, and the sad thing is that's not all the shows I watch. Now that it's all listed out I just seem like a junkie right now.
Gossip Girl premiers tonight! Hope everyone is having a great long weekend, real post on Wednesday.